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International Women's Day... er... a Bit Late

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Here's the thing... it has taken me a *really* long time to feel comfortable in my own skin. And if I'm being honest, I'm not totally sure I could say I actually am comfortable all the time, but I feel like I'm getting better.  I grew up thinking I was never enough. Never smart enough, pretty enough, fit enough, athletic enough, anything enough. I was too loud as a kid. I talked too fast. I had too much energy, and I felt like I was constantly a burden. I wanted to share my ideas with everyone, and I felt like people were constantly annoyed with me. Why - I wasn't sure.  In hindsight after many years as an educator, I can say with confidence that I most likely suffered from an undiagnosed case of ADHD. I've filled out enough of the teacher questionnaires for students being tested for it to recognize oh my... that was me . The hyper-focus was real, as was the struggle to pay attention. I couldn't help but to notice everything going on around me all of the ti
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And So It Begins... Or Continues

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Some people fear change. I crave it. I grow restless when life feels stagnant, even when it's beautiful. Somewhere inside of me, a wild animal feels caged and scratches at the bars, begging to roam free.  I've never understood this about myself, but as I grow older, I am beginning to accept this trait. Perhaps one day I will embrace it, though it was never cultivated in my upbringing. Quite the opposite, in fact. I was raised to admire stability and security, and spontaneity and risk were discouraged and even admonished.  Somewhere along the journey of college, teaching, becoming a professional ballroom dancer and instructor, motherhood, a move to Seattle to satisfy my husband's job crush of working for a large tech company, a return to college, half a decade of working in law, and finally, a return to teaching... I realized something extremely important about myself: I do not fit in the box.  The box. That beautiful, clean, straightforward box of pursuing a passion, findin
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